pain pain pain. Today is pain. Woke up, tried to get out of bed, way to painful so back to sleep I went. Woke up at about 2pm. Horrible I know. I need to start getting my hours adjusted so I can start enjoying the daylight again and need to move my ass outside more.
Tired and in pain, that's all I have for now.
G
I know that people will disapprove of me vacationing when I haven't been employed for 14mo now. And right now, I don't want to be employed. I search and search and come up empty handed or interview and come up with hollow promises. You can actually smell the bullshit on the interviewers. I know times are tough, but don't shove a plate full of bullshit under my nose and try to wet my appetite. Not happening.
So in 11 days I heading off to Croatia for the 2nd time. My father's country. I think and hope that it will clear my head and calm me down enough so that when I get back, I'll be focused enough to get back on track and maybe try a new approach to my life and the no work issue pending here.
Hey, does anyone ever read this? Maybe I should start to advertise my blog onto other social network sites.
Leave a comment at least that you've read this so that I still know that I'm alive at least. haha
G
Crazy how today's wireless telecoms advertise all these amazing speeds and stuff but still can't deliver. I just took it upon myself to do some speed testing using my iPhone. I tested speeds using Edge, 3G and my wireless network (ISP is TWC Roadrunner). These are the results that I came up with and I had what I suspect full strength cause all my bars were there. No wonder surfing is shitty unless you run off a wireless network, 3G is kind of disappointing as well.
Been in a rut for quite a long time now and these last 2 days have been especially hard on me. Job market sucks pretty bad right now and I'm not sure what I even want to do anymore with myself. I am working on a side project which I hope to reveal in several months but I'm having difficulty just getting it off the ground. Turns out, I'm not the personality type that can work for myself. I need to be depended on and for some reason I don't count as a person to myself. This makes the situation quite difficult considering the endeavor to which I'm trying to accomplish.
Has anyone ever had the situation where they really needed to rely on themselves for everything but came from the environment opposite? I'm used to working and doing more important things for everyone else. The need to serve others.
All I know is that I am missing from my own equation. :(
Where does it go especially if you're sitting in a funk? I think I'm soon going to meld into my office chair at home. This thing has become my new best friend. I do appreciate that is a Herman Miller chair though. I want to shake his hand and thank him personally, anyone know how to get in touch with Herman Miller? Post a comment to this blog posting
I'm really not in the best moods lately and almost impossible to get motivated in anything I do. I know the benefits that can be had with moving my ass, but why is it that I can't get moving? Anyone know of some good pharmaceuticals that help?
