2009-06-12

When does the end come?

Been in a rut for quite a long time now and these last 2 days have been especially hard on me.  Job market sucks pretty bad right now and I'm not sure what I even want to do anymore with myself.  I am working on a side project which I hope to reveal in several months but I'm having difficulty just getting it off the ground.  Turns out, I'm not the personality type that can work for myself.   I need to be depended on and for some reason I don't count as a person to myself.  This makes the situation quite difficult considering the endeavor to which I'm trying to accomplish. 

 

Has anyone ever had the situation where they really needed to rely on themselves for everything but came from the environment opposite?  I'm used to working and doing more important things for everyone else.  The need to serve others. 

All I know is that I am missing from my own equation.   :(

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