Lots to catch you all up on. But I don't think any of you are actually paying any attention. Which is ok. I set this up as an experiment for myself and to help me think a bit more clearly.
I will make a few more posts and add pictures and then say goodbye to blogging for a while.
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pain pain pain. Today is pain. Woke up, tried to get out of bed, way to painful so back to sleep I went. Woke up at about 2pm. Horrible I know. I need to start getting my hours adjusted so I can start enjoying the daylight again and need to move my ass outside more.
Tired and in pain, that's all I have for now.
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I know that people will disapprove of me vacationing when I haven't been employed for 14mo now. And right now, I don't want to be employed. I search and search and come up empty handed or interview and come up with hollow promises. You can actually smell the bullshit on the interviewers. I know times are tough, but don't shove a plate full of bullshit under my nose and try to wet my appetite. Not happening.
So in 11 days I heading off to Croatia for the 2nd time. My father's country. I think and hope that it will clear my head and calm me down enough so that when I get back, I'll be focused enough to get back on track and maybe try a new approach to my life and the no work issue pending here.
Hey, does anyone ever read this? Maybe I should start to advertise my blog onto other social network sites.
Leave a comment at least that you've read this so that I still know that I'm alive at least. haha
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Crazy how today's wireless telecoms advertise all these amazing speeds and stuff but still can't deliver. I just took it upon myself to do some speed testing using my iPhone. I tested speeds using Edge, 3G and my wireless network (ISP is TWC Roadrunner). These are the results that I came up with and I had what I suspect full strength cause all my bars were there. No wonder surfing is shitty unless you run off a wireless network, 3G is kind of disappointing as well.
Been in a rut for quite a long time now and these last 2 days have been especially hard on me. Job market sucks pretty bad right now and I'm not sure what I even want to do anymore with myself. I am working on a side project which I hope to reveal in several months but I'm having difficulty just getting it off the ground. Turns out, I'm not the personality type that can work for myself. I need to be depended on and for some reason I don't count as a person to myself. This makes the situation quite difficult considering the endeavor to which I'm trying to accomplish.
Has anyone ever had the situation where they really needed to rely on themselves for everything but came from the environment opposite? I'm used to working and doing more important things for everyone else. The need to serve others.
All I know is that I am missing from my own equation. :(
Where does it go especially if you're sitting in a funk? I think I'm soon going to meld into my office chair at home. This thing has become my new best friend. I do appreciate that is a Herman Miller chair though. I want to shake his hand and thank him personally, anyone know how to get in touch with Herman Miller? Post a comment to this blog posting
I'm really not in the best moods lately and almost impossible to get motivated in anything I do. I know the benefits that can be had with moving my ass, but why is it that I can't get moving? Anyone know of some good pharmaceuticals that help?
I love looking at statistics, especially those of how fast someone’s internet connection is. I check speedtest.net every once in a while for my speeds and just wanted a chance to post what others post so often.
This is only half of what my ISP is supposed to deliver. I hate all the fake promises they make. The upload is good, the download is pathetic. At around 1am do I ever get the appropriate speeds.
I can’t wait for Verizon’s Fios to come around so I can threaten RR with leaving and see if they do anything to compensate. I would at least like to have a 3 or 5Mb connection on the upload. That would make me soooooo happy.
Ever just wake up just being really grumpy? Not cause you just woke up, but that is the mood that is set for the day. Mine started about 20min after I woke up. Now I’m in the not giving a fuck for anything mood. Feeling some aggression too.
I think I feel more pissed off and kinda light headed at the same time. Ever get that? I should measure my blood pressure. I’ve been getting light headed recently and it’s probably from high pressure.
So here is a funny update. I just borrowed my fathers blood pressure device and my pressure is really good actually. Even when I’m getting the feel of being pissed and anxiety my pressure was 125/67 with a pulse of 72. So it’s completely on the norm. hmmm.
I’ll take it again later when I’m about to want to punch someone in their fucking face for being stupid with me.
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Had a friend of mine from my grammar school visit today. We went out for some Thai then back to my house for a movie and ice cream. Today’s stress levels were totally null, which was a real delight considering lately I’ve been freaking out a lot.
Hmmm, I’m hungry again. Think I’m going to polish off some Indian leftovers that my sister left me and watch the movie Waiting. Pretty funny shit right there.
Prepping for the poopy weekend weather. Have a few projects to work on as well.
Can you tell I’m a little bored while writing this?
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Back on 5-3-09 I went to the Nokia Theatre in NYC and saw the bands Volbeat and Nightwish. Volbeat is what I really went to see, Nightwish is what my friend went for. My friend Mike ended up leaving the show loving Volbeat and ok with Nightwish and for me VOLBEAT ROCKED. I lost interest in NW. Oh well, sorry, you just didn’t catch my ear.
here is a little clip of it
Volbeat – Radio Girl
Another blog update soon to follow. Just trying out a new piece of software for the blog and I’ll add yet another random photo
Preview looks nice. Let’s do some posting, shall we?
I’ll be back. I have much to say.
